Metacognition: Kite Runner Essay

When I started to write my essay on The Kite Runner, I believed that Khaled Hosseini wanted us to think that redemption required some degree of insanity. Although that may still hold, as I sat down to think about my thesis, my thoughts took another path.

I thought of how Amir achieved his redemption and it seemed all to clear that Hosseini was trying to say we needed to be irrational to gain peace. But upon peeling back the layers, I realized that while what Amir did was insane that wasn't the point Hosseini was trying to emphasize. Hosseini was trying to tell us that we must face our problems and take direct action to resolve them. The insanity of Amir's action were placed there for a dramatic effect, not for deeper meaning.

When I considered Baba, my thoughts furthered down this same path. When I thought of all that Baba had done to redeem himself, with all the charity that ultimately failed, I found that some could argue that Baba's actions were insane. He forced himself to live a saintly life so that he could try and find inner peace, that is a tad bit insane. I thought then, that there were holes in my original thesis. Why would insanity work for one character but not another? The answer I came up with was that Amir unlike Baba took direct actions to atone for his sins. I had a mini epiphany at that point and realized that I had my new thesis.

I was shocked at how I could change my mind so easily. For an opinionated person, such as myself, changes in thought are especially profound, not to mention rare. I was a little taken back. It also surprised me how effectively and efficiently I was able to answer one of my own questions, "Why would insanity work for one character but not another?". When I first began to question my own thesis I was worried that I would never be able to patch the holes in it, but I did.

I enjoyed how I was able to be my own critic, and play my own devil's advocate. It was a really interesting experience to be able to challenge my own thoughts; I wish I could do this more often. I would like that my thoughts were less linear sometimes. It would make the process of reaching deeper meaning much easier. My thoughts follow a pattern and flow from one related topic to the next, so if I get stuck at one point, my thoughts refuse to reach a deeper level. A little bit more randomness could help me get past those road blocks.