An Inconvienient Truth: We are within memory; memory is not within us

The post modern view that we are within memory and memory is not within us, makes me extremely uncomforable. I don't know where to start with it. The idea completely distorts and twists my basic understanding of existence. I believe that my memories exist inside of me; they are my recollections of things that happened, contained with in my brain. It is my own neurons, in my own brain, that synthesize them and store them. I am very possessive of my memories because they also describe my life and my expiriences.

Post modern view agrues that the system made my memories, and that I do not exist outisde the system. In fact I am really existing in a memory itself. It is hard for me to grasp that I could very well be in a memory because I have my own memories. This struggle is very similar to what the charcters Sophie and Alberto go through in the novel Sophie's World. They have a difficult time coming to terms with the fact that they dont not exist outside of the author's mind; they only exist in the story that he has created. In essence they only exist in his 'memories'. Could I only exist in memory as well? This seems absurb because I have memories and can struggle with the question. If I can ask the questions does that mean that I am not a memory? Another tenant of post modern thought is that no one person can comprehend the entire truth. That being said, is it even worth it to ponder my existence?

The implications of this truth are serious. If this statement is true, then my exisistence is limited. The basis of my religion, my understanding of the world, and my understading of myself would be shattered. It would destroy all the claims of Christianity about life and my purppose here. I don't know how I could find meaning with my life either. If this were true it would mean that I am not much more than a dream, or nightmare.

I don't even know where I would beign to come to terms with, and or accept this idea. It is an idea that I immeadiately reject, knowing very well that the implications of this truth would destory the existence I do have. If this becomes widely accpeted, I guess I would have to accept it to and try to find my niche in the system.